This little while has been a strange one for me.
I feel like I've been distorting my view of how life should be like. I've put this lovely life of mine up on a pedestal, expecting everything to work out for me without acutally working at it.
I've put myself in a bit of a pickle.
I somehow jsut now realized that relationships of all kinds need work. Friendships, relationships, cargoships. I thought that all the relationships I had would be fine as long I didn't become too bitchy. Well that shit don't fly sister.
I realized this when Michelle came up. I realized how much of a snotty bitch I've been. I actually do regret not seeing her. And same with Jacqueline. Now she's gone back, and I only came out of my stupor today to realize she was here. I seriously need to get my head outta my ass.
Same goes for my relationship with Dorian. This weekend was our two year anniversary. We were fine Friday and Saturday. But come Sunday, our actual anniversary, we were downright mean to each other. I don't know if it was the lack of sleep or the fact that I caught a cold, but it was horrible. I don't ever want it to happen again. Then again, why am I blaming all this on myself?
Regardless, I'm sorry to everyone. It's been a shitty past while for me. Everything'll be fine now. To lighten the mood:
He's totally thinking about me too.
